Earlier I posted that Dad had decided NOT to do any more chemo treatments in light of the low benefit chance of the chemo actually helping/ healing the leukemia.
After another visit from Dr. Bhushan where Dad informed him of his decision, Dad sensed that doctor was disappointed. After some more thinking, Dad made a change of mind. He decided to tell the doctor that yes, he would go for chemo after all. I will try to give the the basic gist of the reasons for this change of mind:
1. He felt that this was a selfish decision on his part – taking the easy way out.
2. He got to thinking that this was taking his life into his own hands. He wants to totally give his staying or going in God’s Hands.
However, even though he did decide to go for the chemo, because of his shortness of breath, chemo could not start until that was figured out because chemo would just make it worse if this lung problem is an infection. That something is legitimately out of wack if for sure but the doctor still does not know exactly what the cause of the problem is. Dad is using oxygen basically all the time now- by a mask and/or nose.
We have had some good visits with Dr. Bhushan and Dr. Berryman (the doctor on call this month)…the summary of our visit with Dr. Berryman yesterday was that chemo is not an option at this point. The truth of the matter is that the leukemia is back and the chance that chemo would help is very, very slim. Chemo at this point could rather make Dad’s quality of life considerably less and quite possibly even shorten the time that Dad does have with us here.
The other day, Dr. Berryman very honestly said that the doctors have done all they really can do medically – that the healing will have to come from somewhere else than chemo.
So thank-you so very much for praying for us! For Dad – for endurance and peace and strength, For Mom – for peace and His joy and rest even when the hours and minutes of sleep are so sorely lacking!, For us as a family – that we would know how and where and when to be the support to Dad & Mom in the way that they need it and we can and for strength as it seems that God is calling our Dad home, For our sweet nurses – as they care for Dad and tend to his needs, and for our family that has come and is coming from different places to give us support during this time. We so need them and love it that they are here with us.
Finally, Dad desire is that God gets all the glory!!! So please as you pray and think, would you keep that in mind?
If you are under the age category of child 
, I would like to say a special “Thank-you” for praying for Dad so much…you are so special to us and to Jesus! To those of you who are taking up the faith in praying for healing for Dad, thank-you so much. You are our invisible support! For all of you who have shown and still show your support in so many ways, thank-you. I am so glad that Jesus knows each one of you by name and that He can bless you in unmeasurable ways!!!
Blessings, Kim
